Reasons to smile - Blessings

If you know the burden we bear, you'd wonder why I smile. How I could even muster one, after all the baby died only 6 weeks ago (has it only been 6 weeks?). Well truth be told I hadn't stopped smiling. There are days when it was far and few in between but it was there...

I truly believe there are blessings in every trial. Even in something as mind-numbingly-earth-shattering as the loss of a child.

Dayani's birth, the chance to hold her, know her physically and love on her for one whole week was a true blessing. I wouldn't trade it for the world! I can't! I won't! But if we are to talk about the land of the living, here are two of the most important reasons I smile...

(Ishan and Appa on January 3rd, 2015)

Ishan, if you are reading this you'd wonder why you and Appa are lying on a mattress on the floor of your bedroom. That story is coming... I've been meaning to write it but don't know where to start. So bear with me.